I’ve been reading a lot lately. Not whole books, but rather browsing through magazines, books, blogs, commentaries, and gathering impressions from many conversations and sermons. The authors and speakers come from many faith backgrounds, some I pick-up because they seem familiar, others because they are very different from what I believe.
What am I searching for? I’m not completely sure.
At times I find myself very unsettled.
My denomination is splitting and various paths to ordained ministry are full of compromises (some logistical, others moral). The Christian world is changing and I am straddling a great chasm between the organized and the personalized.
A wonderful time for a casual historian to be alive, but also a challenge when, for the time being, I am looking in from the outside.
Then, between diapers, an internment, and playing in the pool, I am stopped in my tracks.
I read the same scripture reference, even using almost the identical phrasing, to explain our role in the current reality and the reality to come when God’s Will reign’s fully. While Rob Bell in Love Wins talks about living now as stewards and servants and taking off the trappings of power in the era to come, Richard F. Ames in Tomorrow’s World (Jan-Feb 2012) focuses on believing the right things now so that we will rule right next to Christ in Heaven.
To actually see these two apply the same scripture, the same basic theology, but come to completely different conclusions – well, makes me really thankful that God’s Love is truly limitless.
I wonder if we have forgotten that it is not God we are looking at in the distorted mirror, but rather we are the distortion (Gen 1:26). Do we look at ourselves first, to see who God is, rather than looking at God, to see who we are created to be?